la joie

About a year ago I got these two little words tattooed on my right arm. I had wanted it for awhile and thought I’d wait for my birthday to get it. And then I thought, why am I waiting? What am I constantly waiting for? The words literally mean joy. Am I really going to wait for that?

Today I realised I’m learning this all over again. I thought once I hit my financial goal I could move onto my next goal straight away. Hello ego, how are you? Now goals are good and all, until you forget why you’re doing it. And this tattoo was a reminder to never forget. I do it from love. I do it for joy. Not “success”. As a former teacher’s pet, I constantly have to remind myself this.

So I’m putting these goals away for a minute and going to enjoie where I am right now. Create because I love to not because I’m gunning for a career goal. No no, that’s not how I live anymore. And as scary as that sounds, life isn’t worth it if you’re miserable as hell and slaving away for your ego that hunts for external success. That isn’t success to me anymore. I know I’ll forget this again. But I know I’ll remember it again, again.

x maia